why?

<3

I've always been annoyed by those people who say "don't give away your heart", like loving someone will take away from yourself. Almost like...if you love someone and they don't love you back, then it wasn't worth it, then you've wasted your heart. Disregarding the physical, or romantic ideas behind it, "giving away your heart" is not a bad thing.

I love a lot of people. I'm not gonna lie, they're everywhere. 

And...I don't know...I'm not sure...but I think that a "heart" in context of this love, is not limited, like a physical heart is. I think that, with God's help, we can love every single person in the world. That doesn't mean we will, but I think it means we don't have to withold anything.

If God commands us to love everyone, then we should at least try.

For me, it's hard not to love someone. [CASC, but, really, I find it difficult]

There are literally hundreds of people across the country that I *love*, I mean really love. Like, it makes my heart glad to think of them and sad to miss them.

Maybe I just haven't met anyone bad enough, but I can't recall meeting a single person I don't like. Eventually, when I become friends with these people, spend time with them, and get to know them I love them.

[don't ask me to define love in this context...let's say it's either agape, or philia]

[that flaunting of Greek terms was just for you Hayley ;)]

Why can't we 'give away our hearts'? if God tells us to do it, He'll replenish our supply of heart if we need it.

meh, I'm not sure if I'm right, I've just been thinking about this a lot recently.

wastin' time

I'm frantically writing a speech.

Attempting to finish it by 3. Right now it's 2:38.

and yet, I stopped to post on my blog.

What is my problem?

Is it because it convicts me, that I don't like my procrastination speech? 

hm.

bye

p.s. if you are Hayley, or in my family, you know that this did not end up working out *goes off to finish speech*

Spam (154)

that's what my gmail keeps telling me.

I have a lot of spam.

So I went in there to delete it today and noticed that most of it was 'cleverly' disguised as being from "me". 

The bait.

yes, yes, the subject lines, while the interiors of the emails are probably just trying to sell me stuff/make me send money to foreign countries, the subject lines are what get me.

Here are a few.

"Sandy will sue you"

"Where were you last night?"

"Fire near your house!"

"Come to accounting department now"

"Check answering machine please"

"Need you in hospital"

"So I will see you this evening or not?" --the terrible grammar in this one kills me.

"Check if you attached files..." --anyone who has ever been my debate partner will find this hilarious. xD

Just thought I'd share those before I hit 'delete forever'.

Edifying music, anyone?

I plan on writing a post about the super-fabulous Freedom tournament sometime in the future. But for now I have a question for you all...and by "you all" I mean...the three people who read this.

Do you know any good Christian music?

A while back I got so sick of the monotonous, repetitive, and down right annoying, style of most  contemporary Christian music. 

As a result, I've almost nearly abandoned listening to Christian music at all.

That isn't right.

Help me out here, if you don't mind. 

{at this moment I am listening to Brandon Heath's "Give Me Your Eyes", because that is an awesome song, I wanna hear more stuff like this}

Michael is juggling apples...

...and he just dropped some on the ground, oops!

At the moment I'm listening to Taylor Swift's live cover of Rihanna's "Umbrella".

That tells you a little bit about what kind of music I listen to. :)

I like female country singers who have a non-crooning voice [Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, etc.], and I like rap (but only the non-objectionable kind), and I like the Jonas Brothers. 

Yes, I did just say that.

I've been thinking a lot about why I like certain types of music, because I like almost everything.

The first thing is lyrics. If the lyrics are good I could care less how it sounds, because the message is amazing. 

Secondly, though, if a song sounds good, I enjoy listening to it. And, to my ears, for some reason, most music sounds good. I'm using 'sounds good' as a loose term here for 'sounds nice to me'. 

My favorite songs to listen to change from day to day, or week to week. Right now I'm really into Taylor Swift and Jesse McCartney, a few months ago you would've found me listening to Carrie Underwood or David Archuleta non-stop. And before that? Switchfoot all the way!

And now, at this very moment, I am listening to Demi Lovato. She's cool ;)

My brother likes to say that my taste in music, is that I have no taste in music. He's mostly right, I'm not too over-critical of the music I like.

There are pretty much two factors that would discourage me from listening to a song/artist: 'objectionable content' (swearing, sex, excessive drug references, etc.), OR lyrics I cannot hear...like screamo.

So, this post was kinda lame, but I don't know, I just wanted to try to explain. 

<3

'Reaching so hard my hands are hurting...'

∞

what is it?

God is ∞.

I can't comprehend that.

I have lots of work to do today, and hopefully I'll be able to finish my to-do list and then some. But I just wanted to post...because I can, and because I like to think about stuff.

Sometimes I wonder whether because I like a lot of shallow things [Jonas Brothers & The Disney Channel, anyone?] it makes me seem like a shallow person. Or like I don't think.

I love thinking. I love turning a problem around in my head until I'm sick of it. Contemplation, of things simple or deep, important or inconsequential, is something I do often.

Speaking of The Jonas Brothers, next time I think I'll talk about my musical taste...or lack thereof ;)